" In you is an endless well of Love. The tension you feel is the backpressure of your limitless love being stifled as you attempt to pour it into one shallow vessel after another."
There is a tension in your soul. It’s so permanent you might have lost sensitivity to it. But most likely, you feel it all the time. Every day, all day. There are a few distractions here and there, where the tension subsides, or relents momentarily, but it can quickly resume and consume you.
The human soul is a very deep well. Bottomless. And we exist
in a temporal realm, where everything around us is, well, temporary. The
language we can sometimes use is indicative of our needs. We might say of
someone who is clearly committed to a goal, that they are “pouring their heart
into their work.” This is more than an idiom.
The human soul is one thing above all. The human soul is the
capacity for love. The human capacity for love, to be loved, to love, is
infinite. There is no maximum capacity for love in the human soul, whether
receiving or sending out. We are capable of love beyond our wildest
imaginations, and many of us feel sparks of this at different times in life,
with loved ones and friends, in times of ecstatic joy, we can feel love, if we
let ourselves, we can feel love well up inside us and even bust out of the borders
of our flesh and seemingly glow outward into the universe around us, outward
and ever expanding, as if it were capable of filling all of time and space
itself, infinitely and forever. Love is that infinite. Your ability to feel and
project love is infinite. You are capable of infinite projections of love and
beauty and joy.
But our daily lives are not generally lived to this
capacity. We fill our days with menial tasks, chores, jobs that we maintain so
we can pay a mortgage or rent, feed ourselves without having to plow fields,
and burn our free time on whatever trivial distraction we can access moment to
moment, subconsciously avoiding the consideration of why this tension keeps
building up inside.
We have built up a society that can fool us into thinking we
are seeking satisfaction in our actions and in our behaviors, even our
possessions. We feel we are working towards something, a goal, a completion, a
satisfaction that should come, but it never does. Or, if we do achieve a brief
satisfaction from achieving an earthly goal, it is just that, brief and
fleeting. We maybe enjoy a single beat, or maybe an entire evening before the
tension and need to perform re-establishes its permanent seat in our psyche,
and another vain attempt at satisfaction will begin. There is nothing on this
earth that will satisfy you. It isn’t possible. You can immerse yourself in sport,
song, hobbies, you can strive to accomplish the earthly goals of finance, you
can cross off goals along the way and compare yourself to others, you can
decide at some point that you are successful. But all you have and all the
accoutrements of your success are temporary. Furthermore, it’s hard to see in
youth, but becomes clearer with age, these material goals, these earthly goals,
ultimately do not provide satisfaction, the tension never ceases. This is
because these earthly goals are too shallow.
In you is an endless well of Love. The tension you feel is
the backpressure of your limitless love being stifled as you attempt to pour it
into one shallow vessel after another. We have structured our society to
encourage this, the hunt for monetary wealth, power, prestige in the earthly
realm, these are all temporal and shallow, entirely incapable of receiving the
full measure of love that you possess. If you go about your days pouring your infinite
heart into shallow vessels, the tension you feel will ultimately become immense
and could bring you down under the sheer weight of the built-up pressure; you
can become mentally and physically wore down.
There is only one vessel that can possibly contain the
infinite love you are capable of. There is only one infinite being capable of
receiving and reciprocating infinite love. God. You will not find peace until
you find God. There is no earthly pleasure, process, or power that is deep
enough, that has the infinite potential to fully accept your infinite love.
Your attempts to pour your heart into shallow earthly vessels is causing the
tension you feel. If instead, you pour your love into God, you begin to feel
the infinite nature of love well up within you, you feel the tension actually
dissipate, the pressure behind the dam is finally released, God can take it all!
Let it out, send it out. You will begin to feel the love emanate from your soul
out into the universe around you, the warmth of it will begin to bump into
those around you. Tell them, tell them what you have done, when they feel it
and look at you with wonder, tell them. Tell them you’ve woken up, you are no
longer busy pouring your energy into shallow earthly affairs, you have allowed
your love to bloom outward into the infinite space of God, and that they too
can let go, and let their love flow outward. And your love can join with
theirs. And the next person, and the next. Let your infinite love pour outward,
filling the voids and gaps that distance you from those that have not yet seen
the fate of a shallow existence. Let your love awaken them, let it penetrate
their tunnel vision. Let it spark the love within them to overflow their
shallow concerns and join with your expanding love into the heavens above.
Imagine the love of all souls on earth, growing outward from
each individual, expanding outward and dissolving into each other, expanding
further and upward into a heavenly harmonic song, ringing through the molecules
of space and every instance of time, feel your love join together with the
souls of eternity, the souls of the ages, in one singular vibration of harmonic
ecstasy.
This and only this will heal the tension within you.
Alleviate your fears of the future, your shallow concerns about daily affairs.
These are merely distracting you from your purpose. Ring out love with every
ounce of your being, pour out your heart, pour it out through time and space,
through cell walls and planetary dust, send it out faster than the winds, pour
it out in full into the endless reservoir of God. It is the only way. As
fraught with conflict as our earthly realm is, the state of tension so high, with
solutions seemingly so harsh yet the lack of solution even worse, and the
trade-offs becoming increasingly unpalatable; the act of pouring your love into
God, letting it expand ever outward, and allowing your love to infect the
existence of those around you, that is likely the only Good that can be done.
